So, here is the beginning of my journey as a blogger. I am now over half a century old (Yikes!), and I just got married on Dec. 21st, 2019 to the man of my dreams! Well, I had been married two times before, but my first husband passed away 19 years ago from Cancer and my 2nd husband passed away from liver disease January 21st, 2018. However, somehow I survived both of their passing’s with the peace, grace and love of our Father in heaven and my true husband Jesus Christ, who has been faithful to me in all instances. That’s where the idea came to me about Three Husbands, the two loving souls that passed away and Jesus my true husband, who saved me from both of those calamities in my life.
This is the most important point of my survival, Jesus who has held my hand and walked me through the deserts and valleys of my life. I will explain how I came to Christ in another post. God had put it in my heart to start a blog back in 2002 shortly after my first husband passed. That was called The Young Widows foundation, but I did not quite get around to following through with it probably because of fear of criticism, acceptance and the stigma that comes with being a widow at 33 years old. I was quite young and I was still at the beginning of my life’s journey. Back then, there was very little support groups on the internet for grieving, especially young widows. I looked, but not many sources. Today it is a little different, plus I was led to Jesus Christ by the Holy Spirit’s leading in March 2003, and of course I eventually was plugged into a church that had a Grief Share Support Group which was helpful to my emotional and mental health. I am grateful to God for providing all of my needs.
“And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”- Phil – 4:19, NKJV
On a lighter note, I have a 2 and 1/2 year old Toy Papillon named Daphne, and inherited a 2 year old female Husky named Tasha in my new married life. Gratefully, I find myself with my amazing earthly husband that God had planned for me from the beginning. I never knew a love like this ever existed. I thought I knew how to love, but it turns out I knew nothing of love and I am afraid I failed miserably in that department with my kind 1st husband and my lost and adventurous 2nd husband. I did love them both, but as it turns out they were in my life’s path and I was in their’s to learn and prepare for what God’s future had in store for me and them. Or, the other explanation could be that the first half of my life was never God’s plan, but it was. I truly wish I hadn’t gone through all of that. It would have been better if I had just chosen wisely and known that God loved me and wanted the best for me because I was his beloved daughter and princess and He has the most abundant inheritance waiting for me and for you. My relationship with Jesus Christ has shown me how to love better. I’m not perfect by any means and I am still learning and I am thankful that my God is patient. In my case, very patient!
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” – Jeremiah 29:11 – NKJV
After years of biding my time, maintaining a cheerful demeanor and not taking life as seriously as I should have, I find myself realizing that it is more serious than I could have ever imagined. Therefore, from now on, I am taking this life to the next level. I will share my experiences with others that are in need of my life story and hope that it brings you comfort, peace, grace and hope that you can survive the death of a loved one, death of a job, death of belongings, death of finances and still flourish beyond your wildest dreams.
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts are higher than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:9 – NKJV
I am not sure if it is just my age that has brought me to this realization or if I have grown spiritually enough to have the confidence that I need to communicate and be of help to others which is what I have always wanted. I am a people person. I love people and have a compassion and empathy that surpasses the Average Joe. Don’t get me wrong, my previous life was filled with happiness and adventure, and I was more fortunate than most because early on I was doing what I loved to do and made a living at singing and acting in musicals all over the country and Canada, as well as, running my touring musical production company for 20 + years which I inherited from my first husband. I was blessed with talent and the ability to use those talents to enrich others lives, especially our elder population. From the outside, I was blessed, but the reality was that God was probably thinking to Himself, “Why do they settle for so little when I expect so much more and want to give the best gifts to my children.”
“If a son asks for bread from any father among you, will he give him a stone? Or, if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent instead of a fish?” – Luke 11:11 NKJV
In conclusion, my main concern for the purposes of this blog are young widows all over the world that find themselves lost, destitute or in deep grief from the loss of their husbands, but it is also helpful for anybody going through grief or a loss in direction in their lives. Moreover, I would like to share my own journey of ups and downs hoping to inspire and provide some therapeutic health benefits to myself and those who have lost a loved one and have had to start over with broken pieces and broken dreams. If it is just one person that benefits from my story it is enough and I pray that whoever needs to hear it is blessed by God with wisdom, peace, grace and joy!
“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” John 16:33 – NKJV
